"I" Insights

my life now

2010-09-25T09:17:00.000-07:00

it's been a rough three months since I wrote anything here!

and i've become so different! all over again!

it amazes me how i'm constantly changing, my feelings, my tastes, my opinions...

i really am unsure it that's good or bad!

well right now,

i like the fact that work is getting very interesting and fulfilling! so i'm happy there, tho i strongly feel that there is no gender equality, so that bothers me...

in addition, i've been taken on full board to join MNO Solutions I am actually the managing director, and life has not been easy !

I cannot believe i almost cried when i found out that we were losing 3 students!

But then from that experience i learnt that, you've gotta accept it, move on and look for new grass.

Working on that now, and feel a lot better too!

Also,
i've started hanging out by myself a lot more now, and it's not as daunting as it seems! I'm actually liking it! just that sometimes i have nothing to talk to my self about! hahahJust kidding!

But yeahhh it's fun, i've met a lot of people! it's been great! not easy, but great!

the best part is, you can do whatever you want whenever!

so i really like that...
also,

i think i've become more fit! i can do yoga, well atleast bend backward!

and it really is a great achievement for me, and it makes me supremely happy!

and i've come to terms that right now, i can't afford a holiday or any form of travel (time & money) but it really is fine,

i'm giving my self time till my sister comes back from UK, then i'm totally packing my bags and running away! can't wait...

oh,
and i love all the people i'm surrounded by,

my friends, they're just awesome, i am truly blessed ot have such friends
and family too! ever since my bro n sis have left the house, i've become closer with mum n dad,

i like that too...

only thing i need ot work on right now is my sense of tactfulness... if that's even a word!

i have to learn to say no in a way that people don't even know they're being said no to!
muahahahahha

kay byeeee

Running Away

2010-06-26T23:37:00.000-07:00

Today morning, oh wait, afternoon, after I woke up, I went downstairs to read the news paper.

Boy was that the biggest mistake for the day!

I read news about a lot of despair, corruption, disasters, religious extremists, Malaysia's stupid political parties etc.

The only good thing that brought a smile to my face was a recap on Julia Gillard's journey to becoming Prime MInister and the match of the day! England Vs. Germany!

So whilst I was reading all that ngativity, I was already in my head thinking of a backup plan. Thinking of which other coutry could I buy property and perhaps settle there.

But then, isn't that just being cowardice and running away?

So now I have to do something, something to fix our corrupted country.

Just need to start working on a strategy.

PinkDot

Your Life story

2010-06-25T21:29:00.000-07:00

This one, I would like to dedicate for a very special friend of mine. I actually got it from Robin Sharma's book "Who Will Cry When You Die".

My Friend;
Well, I've aways had a soft spot for her, right from the first day I met her.

So here's to you my Dear dear Friend.

One of the most wonderful things about time is the fact that you cannot waste it in advance. No matter how much time you have squandered in the past, the next hour that comes your way will be perfect, unspoiled and ready for YOU to make the very best of it. No Matter what has happened to you in the past, your future is spotless. Realise that every dawn brings with it the corresponding opportunity to begin a completely new life. If you so chose, tomorrow can be the day that you start getting up earlier, reading more, exercising, eating well and worrying less and even being happier (this I have added on my own). As author Ashleigh Brilliant has observed, "at any moment I could start being more of the person I dream to be- but which moment should I chose?"

No one is stopping you from opening your journal and on a blank page, rewriting the story of your life. This very minute, you can decide the way you would like to unfold, change the central characters and create a new ending. The only question is will YOU chose to do so?

Remember, it is never too late to become the person you have always wanted to be.

I hope this helps you, in wanting to start over. What ever you want to be, I'm right here.

Good Luck to you!
Pinkdot!

RM 800 MIllion palace

2010-06-25T20:16:00.000-07:00

What person in the right mind can accept suck a gift, knowing that there are people in their country not getting the best out of life.

Not getting the proper education.

Elderly being abandoned with no where to go but the streets, begging for a living.

Communities being left out while th rest of the country develops.

Infrastructure that does not lead to enough growth of the economy.

Public transport that can be made better.

To me,
anybody who accepts such an expensive gift (while knowing the above) is just selfish.

And i'm sure he can't not know the above considering that he is the king!

I'm just so disgusted.

Not to mention that it's all taxpayers money.

Sigh.

And now, reading this makes me more sick.

What a way to start the morning.

I just need to do something. I feel stupid for not being able to stop the ridiculousness.

So if ure reading this and feel the same way to, please contact me, and I'll be more than willing to contribute my help.

Time

2010-06-11T01:14:00.000-07:00

Time,
Don't we waste it?

Time is so precious, once it's gone, you definetly can't get it back.
Today, I wasted it, when I got stuck in the rain, after lunching with the Hoe. I was stuck at the LRT. It was pouring heavily, so I couldn't walk to my office. The moment I knew it, I thought, why not I take the LRT go to KLCC, post my letters and come back (cos I wouldn't get wet there and back)
But of course, being cautious, I thought, what if the rain suddenly stopped while I was on the way to KLCC, (the Hoe suggested suddenly taking the train back to my office =.=).

Hence I decided against going there and stood at the Dang Wangi LRT foyer, giving directions to lost tourists :D

By the time the rain stopped, I knew, that I could have just taken the train to KLCC and back. If only I didn't doubt my thought.

I have realised, that when a thought occurs to you, you should just do it. Cos when you stop to think about it, you're just wasting time.
I didn't waste all the time there in the LRT, I gotta to smell the rain, see the rain fall and of course; help tourists!

So I guess it wasn't so bad. But still I could have made better use of it. Oh well, it's gone, there's no point dwelling in the past.

Cheers,
Pinkdot

Ps: I'd like to dedicate this to my fliend Padmini, a person I can talk just about anything and get an honest feed back. you have definitely been a great fliend minii!
Heart you!
Why I'm being nice to her you ask?
Hehe, she made me this beautiful piece of art, and it was very thoughtful of her (although I think she had too much time =D)

Pps: Leaving to Beijing on Monday night!

Expectations

2010-05-29T07:05:00.000-07:00

So I have been thinking about this for the past couple of days, and I just couldn't wait for a better key board to type this, I have to do this now!
I just got of a "scooty ride" with my much little-er cousin and rushed here!
Being on holiday gives me time to read, think and reflect. And I've done a lot of that lately. Enjoying it in fact!

We all have exectations of other people. i don't know bout You, but I sure do, a lot.
And I realised, that this is not right. Cos when I do, I just end up getting dissapointed.
But I'm confused, if you have expectations of somebody, does it not mean that you know that person well enough to know what to expect of them?
If so, when they don't meet your expectations, is it that you don't know them well enough or you're expecting too much?

Anyhow, from today, I've decided that I shan't expect anything anymore. I'm pretty sure it would hurt a lot less.
I reckon it's the same concept as giving without expecting anything in return.
Maan, life's complicated and kinda unfair!

Anyways, the last few days here of doing nothing and reading has been awesome! Can't wait to go back tomorrow to the hectic world again!
Will post pictures soon!
Ps: I tried riding that scooty a.k.a Motorbike, and I crashed a gate. Oopsie! Anyways, bestie calling! gotta go!

23 Yrs Old

2010-05-27T06:54:00.000-07:00

Ergh

I'm THAT old.

I'm in India now, and it's such a bizarre experience. I still can't believe that I put up with this country only 4 years ago for 2 years when I was studying here.

India is still a long waaaay from reaching it's full potential.
Yes, I don't deny that it is rich in culture, but, somethings really have to change and one can't keep falling back on culture as an excuse to avoid change.

Once I get a better keyboard, I would like to discuss on the following:

1. People
2. Women
3. Men
4. The government
5. The transport system

Will be updating this list when the topics come to mind...

Anyways,

Happy Birthday to me!

I'm still olddddd
:S

bad dayyyy

2010-04-22T10:28:00.000-07:00

Today, My PMS reached it's peak in all history (yes, I keep a record)

I woke up, the first thing I uttered was *uck, slammed doors while looking for something. It was so ugly.

I don't know what's worse, being angry or knowing that you were behaving in such an ugly fashion and still continue with it.

At work, I knew I couldn't behave the same way, but I did avoid speaking to my colleagues. In fact one even knew I was in a bad bad mood.

Even when I was called upon by my boss, I acted all normal (but in my head, omg, it was w.a.r)

What fascinates/dissapoints me, is that, if the same thing were to happen at home, if my mom/dad or sis were to call me, I would have snapped.

Without stopping for a second to think, I would have definitely snapped.

Why is it that with people who care and love you, you treat like rubbish, but people who don't matter that much, you treat like there's no tmw.

Ok, not people you don't care about, but friends.

I don't think I would snap at my friends. If I were angry, I'd probably just avoid the call and communicate again once i'm feeling up.

I snapped at my sister today, ( she texted/emailed/and even called!) and finally I snapped.

Don't worry, I apologised. Sorry really makes the world a better place (but do mean it yo! don't just say it)

It's really mind boggling that as we get closer to a person, you feel you have every right to treat them like rubbish.

That is very wrong, and I will take the conscious effort to make that change.
Everybody deserves to be treated with respect, think for a second how you'd like to be treated and treat them like wise.
I hope I can, and I hope you will too (if you behave like me that is...)

Good Night!
Pinkdot

PS: Try waking up with a smile, it really does make a difference!

PPS: My sis is sleeping next to me and kicking me in her sleep, HOW TO NOT GET ANGRY!

Farewell? Oh wait, the clouds aren't cleared yet

2010-04-20T06:54:00.000-07:00

My Sister was recently awarded a scholarship to do her pHd inUK.
She currently owns a learning centre, and teaches and guides students from Internal schools for their O levels and also A'Levels.

I go there some times to help her manage the place for her. The nice sister that I am. (where can we get more of these?!?!)

Last Sunday, the children at the centre wanted to plan a surprise
farewell for my sister, and I helped them, of course.

I did more than just eat ok!

By the time I got there, the kids had already come and were blowing balloons and putting them all over.I blew some balloons too! and omg it kept reminding me how unfit i was, struggling to blow a balloon :S
I think I blew half a dozen and gave up! I proceeded to prioritize!

We arranged all the food on the table, oh there was a cake too!

We found out she was coming, and dashed to the door, in the dark, we told our friend to bring her in. So we waited on the other side of the door, with a lit candle on the cake.

waited...

waited...

Candle melting!

We had no idea wheneither of them were coming too! Such a joke it was!And finally! after re-lighting the candle 3 times ;

Yay! Mission accomplished! She got surprised!

After a 'short' photo session with all her beloved children, we attacked the food.

Since most of the kids who had come were koreans, there were some korean dishes! Slurrppppp

Kimbap (seaweed rolls), kimchi pancakes and some rice cakes.

Everybody had fun, this is a pic with my very dear sister (us, being cute) and the mastermind behind the whole surprise. ( I really did try to help)

Another thing, my sisterl has been invited by all our family members and friends, dinner after dinner, to bid their goodbyes...

She still hasn't left.

I really am skeptical now....

Meanwhile, I'll just enjoy the food.

PS: There's another on this Thursday! Muahahahh

Regards,
Pinkdot

off to bed now!
Yaaawwwwnn

DiGi

2010-04-17T22:18:00.000-07:00

Recently My friend started working at DiGi, and hearing her stories made me wish I was in such an environment as well!

People are relaxed in their dressing and mannerism. Everybody's close knit.

Best part is!!!! THEY'RE A PAPERLESS OFFICE!!!!

How cool is that?!?!?
So now,
DiGi has come up with a new promotion! DiGi , the Next Level
It's for those people who inspire to start up their own business!
Aaaaand it's a reality show concept!! Oh the drama!!! Muahahahahhaha

Winner gets 50,000 ringgit in cash, and it's not the money that's enticing me, but it's the fact that they will give one year of business support!!!

I think that is as important as cash!

So if you have an idea which you think will blow them away! the share your ideas! you can get more information from here.

Okay, I better go now! Need to get my creative juices flowing! I'm so gonna win this !!
Muahahahhahahaha

And to those who might be interested! See ya at the show!

KL!

2010-04-16T02:16:00.000-07:00

Kuala Lumpur is an awesome city! you've got everything in it! New, old, rich, poor. Not to forget alll the eateries tooo!

Today, during our lunch break, my colleague asked me to accompany her to buy material for a baju kurung. We headed to the 'old' KL city. what used to be the heart of the city in the 1960's probably.

That's both my colleagues figuring out which shop to go to. We were spoilt for choices I tell you!

It was near Petaling Street. I am yet to go in, but hey, I was out side! The place we went to, well I'm sure you know by now, I am yet to answer that question! hahaha it was near Jalan Tun H.S. Lee.

That's where Reggae bar is too!

It's also near the Pudu Raya station that's currently under going renovation.

We finally settled for

The shop was neat, not cluttred. It had been established in the 1950's and the sales men there, gosh! They definitely know how to sell! My colleague came out with 2 very expensive materials! Rather than the ONE piece of cloth she needed!

Even she was going crazy deciding what to chose!

But some how, she managed to chose one type, but of course she got distracted by the other materials and bought a second piece! for the 'rainy day'. Women I tell you. So easily distracted by clothes and what not...

I loved this material the most! at first glance it looks like trees, but it's actually BIRDS! and leaves!

Now how cool is that?!?!

This was definitely a fun city experience!

Oh on the way back to work, we stopped to eat.

And whoa!

We found this narrrow lane and look at how every body's eating! Like in a canteen! and the Lady used her b.a.r.e hands to serve the chicken :S

But then again, I heard the food was yummeh... oh well.

PS: the place is never empty! (day times at least...)

Food-me-not

2010-04-15T00:32:00.000-07:00

Long time ago, I came across my friends blog where he referred to his body as a temple!

And it made me realise how little I care for my body, and how wrong that is!

At the start of this week, I told my self, for this week, I'll experiment on a my body's a temple lifestyle.

I stayed away from shisha-ing, I wasn't eating oily food, fresh things basically, until....

Last night, my friend was craving waffles, and I picked her up to get some, during which, i ended up having waffles my self!

Peanut Butter and Chocolate! Slurp!

Grrr! Luckily I had run 3km before that! (so that's kinda okay kan?)

A couple of hours ago, I was walking around with my colleague during lunch, playing with my neck thingy that holds my access cards, I found out I had lost my precious key chain!

And it's not like I'd be able to find it, cos I walk around a LOT of places, and it could be anywhere from my house, 3 LRT stations, My sister's office, my gym, my work place, the list is endless!! Gahhhhh

Not to mention I had so many e-mails that needed my respnse! @!#$%

So, how did I deal with this stress??

Just like how any other rational person would,

Oops! I couldn't wait! I made Milo Paste, and ate biscuits with them.

Slurp! I love Milo!

It's delish!

But after finishing it, I felt so happy again, and that's when the guilt hit me! grr

Why do we have to have a conscience!

So I guess I'll have to head to the gym extra long tonight and get rid of that Milo. Bad Bad bad.

More than 50% of Malaysians are obese, and this certainly isn't a number we should be proud of.

Fun Fact: 'happy hormones' called Endorphins are released during exercise, the same ones released when you have sex ;)

So,

I must admit, I feel verry happy after exercise! and I enjoy it! I hope you too, will get of ur butt and exercise!

Be fit! your body is more important than anything else! If you don't have your body, you can't do so many things in life.

And you wouldn't wanna be left out now would ya!

I think I'm gonna hit some golf balls after gym!

and live in they gym this weekend :S since I got no where else to be/go :(

Pink Dot

S.t.u.d.y!

2010-04-13T06:22:00.000-07:00

This post is meant especially for Nabil Fiqry. (Ladies, he's a handsommme young fella, contact me if you're interested)

So, it's that time of the year, where most of my close friends are cramming for their exams!

Having spoken to one friend in the afternoon, she told me she was busy studying and refused to video call with me. Hmph!But I understand, she had to study and that was definitely more important that my ulterior motive of calling her ;)

So this is especially for my friends,

When studying,Stay away from the internet. your research on a particular topic, may end up here.

When I was in university, that always happened to me!

So I would go to a corner where I knew there would be no WIFI.

As for journals, well as much as I'd like to save paper, I would like to get better grades as well. So print out your journals, and read em.And if you're all out for saving the environment, print 2 pages on each side in a double sided printing preference.

Be sure to not
This usually happens when I'm wondering what I'm gonna have for dinner, or what are my friends up to, basically mundane unimportant things.

For this short period, (study period) ignore everything for that short time you set aside to study and focus on one thing, i.e. the journal!

Also, if the topic you're studying involves reading, reading in a group may help, especially when the journals are all words and no pictures! Reading in a group may or may not useful. Useful in the way that if you are unable to grasp a point, you can seek explanation from your study mates.
Not useful in a way that instead of explaining the notes, you may end up

Gossiping! the worst of em all! However with the right mind and positive attitude, this can be avoided!
Yay!

When I was in Uni, I found studying in groups very effective. However we did it in sessions. First, we'd decide on which journals to read, and we'd read them in our own comfort zone separately.

After, we'd get together and discuss the points we had read. This helped us remember our arguments better!

Also, the most important thing when studying is knowing what to study!

Instead of studying all the topics, chose topics that have been frequently asked in the past years, topics that were stressed in class.

This may not be the best way of studying, cos when you leave uni, you're supposed to know everything,

but for some of us who like procrastinating *ahem* make sure you study important topics first!

I have to go now, hope my two cents worth of advice is helpful!

And to all my friends, Good luck! Promise not to disturb y'all!

<3

and to those who might be sick!

Get well soon!

PS: If this is your final exam, enjoy the time spent studying to the max! Working life is a LOT more taxing!

Regards,
Pink dot

Moms, don't we take them for granted?

2010-02-20T19:03:00.000-08:00

Okay,
so last night, i was hanging out with my friends at Bangsar, I had dropped my mom at a party, and was waiting at bangsar to pick her up after.

She was done at eleven, and I went to pick her up.

Anyways, I picked her up, and both my sis and dad had called and both hadn't had dinner and were depending on my mom for food.

At that moment, I realised how inconsiderate of them!

Both knew that my mom was going out (which is very rare) and yet both were depending on food for her when they were both out!

There are many sides to this.

One hand hand, children and husbands are generally dependent on moms/wife cos it's 'normal'

but i think it's not fair.

but to a mom, it makes her feel wanted/needed

and sometimes i think mom's don't mind doing it. cos they love their children/husband. so they do it out of love, thus, it's not a chore.

but we as children/husband shouldn't also be overly dependent on them and take advantage of them.

So i think, mom's should go about doing their mommy stuff... but once in a while, put a firm foot on the floor and tell the children/husbands to go get whatever they want themselves.

force them to be independent now and then.

Dinner Last night was thanks to Sarvanna bhavan.... pheww

Trolak!

2010-01-22T05:35:00.000-08:00

Last weekend was a team building event at the office, it was a pretty interesting experience. It gave me a chance to observe my colleagues and how they are outside the workplace.

According to the itenary, we were expected to be at the office lobby between 7.30 and 7.55 am. Yes, on a Saturday morning, sigh. But nonetheless I along with the rest of my colleagues made it to the pickup point by 7.55 am.

Unfortunately, due to the god damn Malaysian timing bull shit, the bus driver only came at 9 am!

Of course it pissed me off, cos I could have been sleeping given the late night I had ;)

Staff were against the event considering that the weekend was the only time they could recuperate, also majority were married, hence they had to factor in the welfare of their children and spouses.

Anyways, considering that this event was a chore to many as it was taking up their weekend, the delayed bus was added annoyance!

It fueled more side remarks from a number of staff. And it was sad that most of the comments led to the organizer of the event, when in actual fact it was due to the incompetence and irresponsibility of the bus driver.

Initially, when we were gathering at the office lobby, it was strange to notice that the staff had segregated themselves into two groups, separated based on one criterion, sex. This is one factor I don’t understand in my office. Perhaps it might be due to the fact that we’re in Islamic banking.

Nevertheless, me being a non-muslim female, I could have mingled with the men, but somehow I felt I would be out of place. Another problem I have with my workplace is language. Informal talk is done in Malay, and I just can’t bring my self to converse in Malay. Just not used to it! so I guess that would have added to the awkwardness had I gone to mingle with men. But some men did come and hang out with the women, so that wasn’t so bad.

During the wait for the bus, many groups had already been formed. Those from within the department had already grouped together and were gossiping amongst themselves, however there were one or two who took the initiative to welcome those from external departments, and that basically is the purpose of team building, to get to know your supporting departments!

By the time people were boarding the bus, groups had been formed, and people found their bus partners.

I went and sat by myself, and let who ever who wished to sit next to me.

Oh, another thing that irked me was that room partners were determined based on Race. Malays were put together, the two Indian women and 2 chinese women were put in room together. This I felt was unnecessary cos aren’t we supposed to be in the spirit of 1 Malaysia?

In the bus, everybody prepared themselves to sleep the 2 hour journey, but instead, we were interrupted for a treasure hunt at the Rawang rest stop. After the stop, we made another stop at a hot spring!

The hot spring was fun! We had to fight hot waters, trying to put our feet in, and attempting to relax at the same time. I somehow didn’t see the benefit of hot springs considering the fact that putting your feet into the water was terribly stressful! The water was hot for heavens sake!

People were even cooking eggs in them! And the whole time you’re sweating by the way! See what I mean by not relaxing!

When I got back into the bus, my colleagues thought I had showered! And even though I didn’t I told them I did, at least that way I’m not some kinda sweaty freak!

We finally reached our destination (Trolak) at about 1.30 pm, and by this time it was waaay past lunch time for most, and everybody got of the bus to have lunch first.

And of course, being the rare vegetarian, I tend to get forgotten. Lucky for me, one of the senior managers was also vegetarian for the month, so I knew vege food would be taken care of.

But due to the natural incompetence’s of some people, it didn’t occur to the resort to prepare our food in advance, instead, they waited for us to come, and make a request. Sigh…

After eating, we got our luggage, and prepared ourselves for the next item on the itenary.

Even when going to the rooms, there was whining along the way, about how there was no lift, and how come the organizer of the event got a room all by herself.

Malaysians just don’t stop complaining innit? Rather than coming up with a solution instead.

Lesson learnt from this: I am going to try very hard to not complain! Even if it’s about the weather. You might as well spend that time coming with a solution instead!

Next on the itenary was walking on a suspended rope. Suspended 20 feet high. And ure being supported by a belayer. Who weighs lighter than you do.

s.c.a.r.y

so walking across the first rope was fine for me, but the second one, you had to balance on suspended ropes, that were miles apart, this was farking hard okay!

And to make matters worse, we had to jump halfway through the rope, and trust the skinny belayer. It took me a good ten minutes just walking about 50 metres, and another ten minutes to jump!

Not easy okay!

I jumped mainly cos my ceo said I should jump, and considering that my confirmation depended on his decision, I did it!

Na, I’m just kidding, I actually felt confident of jumping because of his encouragement.

Here’s another thing, when people look at me, they immediately get the impression that it would be fun to bully me, so when I jumped, my lovely belayer suspended me in air for what seemed like forever! Then he dropped me inches above the ground ever so suddenly making me scream all over again *grr*.

Then we trekked back to our rooms, got some rest, went for dinner and prepared for the next item which was a blindfolded night walk

This I thought was an effective game as we were grouped in groups of ten, blindfolded and were led to some place. We were required to finish a trail blindfolded, having faith in the person at the front of the line.

The purpose of the game was mainly to improve your communication skills, as you are required to pass on info to the person behind you as well and makes sure it reaches the last person.

I was in put in the same group as my ceo (pee’s in pants), however, I did feel that I excelled at this game, as my colleagues got to know that I can understand and pass on messages if any. Also, I think my malay improved here, cos I ended up giving quite a bit (by my standards) of instructions in Malay! *pat on the head*

So this game definitely improved my communication skills! Yay!

Oh btw, my team won! Nyaahhahaha

After waiting for the rest of the teams to come, we headed back to our rooms for a much deserved shower and sleep!

Oh and I made so many new friends! Lynn's one of em, it's funny, she's from the legal department, and hehe, she has a lot of movies...

This piece has too many words :S

The whole team in out green shirts...

Stress? What's that? La la la

2010-01-21T22:18:00.000-08:00

Ok, I just had the craziest 2 hours of my life and it was fun!

On Fridays, it's sort of a self declared 2 hour lunch break, so I grabbed this opportunity to go for a job interview.

Situation:

Didn't have cash

No ATM around me (regardless of the fact that I work in a bank)

Low on Fuel

Airconditioning was conked

Late

worst, I got a summon =(

So I sped like a mad woman to hartamas, that's where the office was, and reached at 12.40 (terrible of me), I would have reached earlier, had I known the way, but Thank God for Quah, I got directions, found my way, found a parking immediately and thankfully, reached the office, went through the interview.

Unfortunately I didn't get it, as I already had another job which I was not willing to give up. (it's complicated, don't ask)

Left that office at 1.30, again, don't forget I'm terribly low on fuel without cash. Manged to get to a petrol station with an ATM, did the neccesary and it was 1.50 by then!

Got slightly lost on the way back again =.= but I managed to tackle it, so it wasn't too bad, reached work, needed to find parking, and rushed back to office, only to realise I had left the money I withdrew in the car, so no lunch.

Rushed back to office and thankfully, my boss hadn't come back, so I was s.a.f.e. not to mention got time to blog as well

Today taught me that if you truly believe that everything will be alright, it will, it really is alllll in the m.i.n.d. I was also surpridingly calm, and entertained by how I wasn't being stressed.

Lessons learnt:

If you're going somewhere new, make sure you drive beforehand to check it out.

Don't try and squeeze time (like a hero)

Always keep cash in hand ( a good idea would be to hide some in your bag, each and every bag you have)

Basically before doing anything, be it a meeting or just going to play a game, think of all possible scenarios and how you'd overcome them. So you get to prepare in advance.

And I guarantee you, life will be awesome. And always be calm. There really is no reason to S.t.r.e.s.s

Weird? No! That, highly likey!

2010-01-19T22:50:00.000-08:00

Today, on my way to work, I saw this lady smiling to herself, and her eye caught mine, I looked away, it was waaay to early to smile back.

However, it did cross my mind that this lady was weird! Smiling to herself, early in the morning.

But then, it occurred to me, I also tend to smile to my self. That too, pretty often!

That's when I realised, if you were to see someone smiling to themselves, be sure to smile back, or at least feel happy for them instead of thinking that they're weird! (like what I did)

Smile people!

But one thing you wouldn't want to be caught doing is this!

I found this guy sleeping in the McD at Ampang Park. Poor thing, must have fallen asleep after having a session with himself!

Yuck!

In Public!!! Well, one good thing is, it brought a smile on my face! hahahaha

Eew!

Cheers,

Day one of Cycling to work

2010-01-15T05:21:00.000-08:00

Phewww, I was quite relieved when I came home alive yesterday! Na, i'm just kidding, I knew i would!

But omg, you guys out there, please, don't think cycling's easy, it really isn't.

Even after having done a test run the night before, boy was I exhausted! I was sweaty when i reached Dang Wangi LRT station, but luckily, for one, I was prepared, had a towel with me, and toweled down all the way to work. Felt better after drying up, I wasn't uncomfortable as such,

BUT

I was exhausted to the core!

I was almost gonne turn back and wake my sister up, but I pushed my self, and in my head all I thought was, if I die, it'd be for a good cause.

Anywho, i locked my bike, when to work exhausted!

At work, my dad found out I had cycled to the LRT and called up to give me an earful. =.=

Dad's can be too over protective I tell you.

SAD thing is, everybody who matter to me are very much against me cycling to work.

Initially I contemplated against doing it, but then today, I was reading 'The monk who sold his Ferrari' and I'm back on my original plan of always always cycling to the LRT.

It makes me really happy to know I am, though in a very small way, contributing to the betterment of the environment.
So I shan't stop. Soon enough, I'll work on petitioning to the government about bicycle lanes!
Yay!

oh and yes today I didn't cycle to work today, cos my sis woke up, or rather, we were both woken up ;) dreadfully early, that too!

But Monday I shall be back on my two wheels! Taking life, just, simply...

Ps: I'll be off to Trolak for the weekend on a team building camp. Early morning tmw ='(

Off to bed now!
Night kiddies =)

It's never too late

2010-01-13T04:50:00.000-08:00

For new years, I promised I would find a more convenient and green way of getting to work.

It's the 13th of January today.... better late than never right?
;)

So,
step 1:

today at work, during lunch, I went to the bicycle shop that's on Jalan Dang Wangi, near Heritage Row, and bought my self a bicycle lock!

It cost me only RM 15, from a pleasant old man, who talked about how selling bicycles alone wasn't enough to survive...

Next,

Get the bicycle ready!

When I went to get it, I found out that the tyres were flat, actually i only found out after taking the bike out of my house... Like far far away from home, so i had no choice but to cycle to the LRT station, since it was also near a Petrol Station.

Basically I was forced.

At the station, I put on the most pitiful face I could, and luckily there was a guy who was pumping air into his bike, looking at me clueless, he helped me pump air into my bike!

yay puppy dog face!

So here's what's happening, I will be cycling to the Damai Lrt station, after a test run today, here's what I found out

> It takes about 15 minutes to the station
> I might get sweaty, so must bring extra towel
>If I'm wearing a skirt how do I cycle?
>I will not be able to handle a hand bang and cycle safely simultaneously
>oh and it's pretty tiring ='( on the plus side, this would work my body and stamina, so all good yo!

Nevertheless, I will do it, for the sake of the environment at least.

So last but not least, I should remember the

Yup Yup! the key! tres important! Else, I won't be able to lock my bike and somebody might steal it.

So I have have have to remember that.

And on days my sister goes to work in the mornings, I'll be getting a ride of her, I'll wear skirts and make up on those days
hahahaha

Wish me luck for tmw! Hopefully I don't give up!

sitting at McD waiting for my tuition kid

2009-12-23T03:05:00.000-08:00

Let me tell you what happened today:

It's Weng Hoe's birthday today!

I had lunch with an old school friend, Aysha, and boy was I exposed to all the Drama one can experience in just one and a half hours! (it's the alcohol I tell you)

After work, I headed to Ampang Park for tuition, I was rushing cos I got held back at work, so when I'm rushing I get more annoyed.

I just don't understand why Malaysians don't seem to follow the idea of "keep left to allow others to walk" on the escalators.

When the train doors open, yes it's considerate of you to exit the train to let those who want to get out at this particular station to go out and then go back in, but

it doesn't make sense if you're just gonna stand right smack at the door! ure still blocking the way dude!

Anyways, I'm at tuition now, but my kid hasn't come, he got stuck in some critical traffic.
Just so you know, there's this lady sitting next to me, she just sits there... in McD's...without ordering anything, she sits and stares out the window.

It's quite intriguing, I'd like to know her past and present, where are her family? why does she sit there? Is she waiting for somebody?
Have her children abandoned her? (let me find them for you and beat the shit out of them!)

Oh, once I'm in top management, I will not give my employees under me work at the dying minute!
It's just inconsiderate and nonsensical!

Sri lanka!

2009-12-20T06:48:00.000-08:00

I'm heading to Sri Lanka, and I sooo can't wait!

Going this Friday!

Hope I can accumulate enough cash by then!

Things to be done:
1. Convert ringgit

2. Pack!

3. Read up!

4. Make a list of things to buy for who... (family n bfm topping the list at the mo)

5. make a list of things i want to buy for myself

By the way, I'm going to Sri Lanka with these bunch of girls I don't know that well, so that's gonna be tonnes of fun to get to know them!

other than mini and Shaz of course!

Plus I get to meet Rozanne! Looking forward to that terribly! and of course, discovering what Sri Lanka has to offer!

What a story!

2009-12-20T06:36:00.000-08:00

Today, I was driving my mum around,

the radio was on, then came those short drama series on the radio.

Typical Tamil drama scene, the mom wanting her son to get married, the son refusing as he didn't want to leave his mom alone.

Then after some persuasion, he gets married (arranged), and he's becomes completely engulfed in wife. Ignoring his mum, making his wife his number one priority. Mom get sick, complains to her friend, friend sticks her nosy butt into the drama, telling the son to respect his mom, wife gets all dramatic hearing this,

son and wife move out. (by the way, this story takes place with ALOT of crying and sobbing and whining!)

Moral of story:

1. Parents, don't pressure your children to get married ;)

2. Children, don't forget that your parents brought you into this world, it is important to be patient with them, as they grow older especially, as much as this can be very tiring, it's the least we could do after they took care of us for soo many years!

That too without complaining.

3. Don't have children, use the money for travel and charity ;)

So from today, I pledge to be more patient, respectful and loving to my parents.

irregardless of my moods

Blood is definitely thicker than water!

2009-12-16T18:05:00.000-08:00

I have been spending a lot of time with my sister, a lot more when she was taking me to work at least...

And we'd talk about everything and anything under the sun, though some I talk about more openly than her, ;)

Last night two things happened, that I hope I'll get to do with her.

1st,
My mom left to singapore on a 3 day trip (woo hoo! party),
my mom went with all her sisters,
So i hope I'll get to do that with my sister, and obviously my brother included, cos we're totally whack put together, and I play a major role in it (being the middle child)

2nd,
My dad's sister (my aunt), we paid her a visit, and she was telling us about how she spent the whole of yesterday visiting hospitals and getting medical check up with her sister!

This I hope will not have to happen, but if necessary, I sure do hope we'll be there for each other.

Plus, we're already getting our cervical cancer shots together! So there's a start. ;)

Hehe, this is how we pray together, we sit close to each other and cam whore. Nyahahahaha

Now, another thing about family, they're crazy!

I texted my uncle to inform him that my mom had called and that everybody's fine in Spore

uncle: k thanks

Me: So how u been la?

Uncle: i'm ok only la

Me: Aiyoyoy, cinama (my aunt) just left one day only so sad already?? Be happy la!

uncle: teh Tarik = rm 1.20

=.=

ps: My brother dearie, U're being missed at home very much,

pps: my cousin who's studying in India has come back and now gone to S'pore due to certain disabilities (omg i'm so mean) has come back, and now talks a la indian

by that i mean, when she speaks, she shkaes her head!

Wahahahahahhaha

It was too funny!

don't be lazy!

2009-11-30T18:02:00.000-08:00

Ever since I started work, I realized I’m been ignoring the environment. Using my air conditioning to full blast, printing out stuff with no consideration for the number of papers being used. Driving at top speed, chugging down fuel for such short distances.

I’ve never felt guiltier in my life. It is very important for us to be conscious of our rapidly degrading environment.

Here’s a little of what I have done in the recent days:

Stopped using my air conditioning

I try and drive slow (yeah right)

I make sure before I print, there are no errors, hence need not having to re-print.

switch of computers when not in use. (along with the monitors)

Switching of switches instead of just the device that's plugged.

Fueling at night or early in the morning rather than in broad daylight.

Other things you can also do is be a vegetarian.

Vegetarianism helps the environment greatly as animal farming is one of the main contributors to global warming.

You don’t even have to be a complete vegetarian. Eating lesser amounts of meat less frequently can be practiced instead. This may be hard for some, but really, meat is like smoking, you reduce it slowly and eventually you don't need it anymore! Plus don't we love animals??

Walking or cycling instead of using cars would be very much helpful, however in KL where drivers are mad, and the government does not believe in providing bicycle and pedestrian lanes do not help much.

I hope I do not become a hypocrite. I really do try and practice what I preach, but sometimes laziness takes over me. But that shall not happen anymore. I’m gonna buy my sports shoes today!

Oh!
When I have saved up eanough money, I plan to get a can o worm for our house. i just hope it will be as it says. Clean and hassle free.

Change

2009-11-28T17:12:00.001-08:00

Change,

This is something many don't accept easily.

A new of doing things.

A new way of living.

A new person.

New tastes.

As you grow older, change becomes hard to accept.

I have seen this so distinctly in some one close to me.

As she grows older, she's unable to accept anything different!

I understand the difficulty in coming to terms with changes, but older people should realise that the times when you were growing up, and when I am growing up is different. They need not be comparable. Just cos I may wanna do different things, doesn't mean I am a bad person. We just have different way of viewing things.

I really do wish that you would read this. Cos then you'd know how I feel.

However, she being older, I must show my respect for her, and be patient with the whole situation as it is one that is very difficult.A lot of emotions are involved, along with many risk factors that come with age.

Life isn't exactly a bed of roses. I shall not complain though, cos there are people out there who don't have the things I do. Who don't have parents to fall back to. Who don't have friends to come rescue them.

I should learn to be grateful for what I have, but I will not settle with what I have. People should always strive to get the better...

Wow, this is pretty contradictory, but weren't we supposed to be content with what we have?

Life is tres confusing no?

Oh well, what ever it is, I know change is a delicate matter, and it has to be brought in slowly. Change is necessary, for that I will hope.

Pres. Obama, come save me!

After soo long

2009-11-22T07:08:00.000-08:00

Woah!

After so long I was having a weekend of nothingness and it never felt better! Friday night, I spent playing with apples and talking to weng!

Saturday morning, I spent the day with my dad apartment hunting, (hopefully i'll be moving in to it)

yea right!
But it was the most perfect apartment I had ever seen! Small, compact, the master bedroom was terribly sexy with a walled mirror right next to the bed!

Towards the night, Tasha and Shirlene came over, played with them apples! then headed out for our supposed movie, but ended up in a club instead!
it was fun! Shirlene drove! and I love it when she drives!

Came back home, had a major confession with weng! ahahahha

Spent sunday morning listening to BFM, yummm but then things got screwed up towards the end, headed out for some chores!

Now i'm back home, supposed to be finishing some charts and I'm yet to start em!
Zomg!
bye!

Tempers

2009-11-22T07:04:00.000-08:00

Don't we all have them. You know, if we took time before reacting with our crazy wild emotions, the world would be a much more peaceful place to live in.

Sometimes, when someone/something pisses you off, you tend to say something so harsh.

So it's really important to take time, breathe, get summore oxygen flowing into the brain, then decide what you really want to say.

It's really that simple.

Too bad we don't always do that ... sigh

So, what could help to control our terrible tempers is probably yoga and some meditation...

People = Confusion?

2009-11-18T17:54:00.000-08:00

Relationships, these are universal, omnipresent, inevitable.

When you’re born, you’re in a relationship with your mother, father and other siblings, if any. Then you grow older, go to school, you have relationships with your teachers, class mates, make friends, then you progress on to get your on life partner, and there still more relationships to be made.

Now, what if a relationship (romantic and non) goes sour? How do you deal with it?

Do you talk it out? Or should you just cut it off completely?

This is pretty confusing to me.

I see two scenarios.

Scenario 1

A relationship goes bad, you may never want to see the person ever again, and you decide to cut that person out of your life completely.
To me, what I think is that you can do so, leave that other person completely miserable, and move on with life. This would be a healthy option if you are really persistent with moving on with life.
It would be basically like starting fresh all over again.

Scenario 2

In a sour relationship, the other thing you can do, is to talk things out, sort it out, face to face.
Yes, some things are easier to be communicated via other means (texting/email/words) but I strongly feel it’s better said then left unsaid. At least by clearly expressing your feelings to each other, there is no room for ambiguity or doubt.
And if you hate each other, you can still clearly explain to each other that you hate each other, and still end the relationship on good clearly communicated hateful terms. As paradoxical as it seems. Hahaha

But this also got me wondering, what’s the purpose of relationships? Is that a bad question?
I mean, at home, you’re born in to the relationship. At school, you make those relationships, at work, you make relationships as well. Actually it could be forced also heheh. =P I mean you need a job, hence you go to work. Your boss could be a monster, but you have no choice but to put up with his antics.
Then you may find a special someone, and you get into a relationship with him/her.
I guess, it’s so that we have people to share our lives with.

Wow, life is seriously complicated eh. Anyways, me, I like having relationships. But I hate superficial relationships. Where you meet somewhere, go all crazy over each other with air kisses and hugs, and probably never see each other again, till chance plays it role.

I believe in people, the importance of getting to know them, understanding them, loving them. And perhaps if things go wrong somewhere along the way, perhaps a little time apart would help in the healing process.
Because there’s no point hating, it will not get you further in life, it will pull you back.

And if you’re the type of person who doesn’t see the need for relationships with people or animals too (heyyy! I love my dog okay!) then I think change would be nice. Try having a friend.
Friends (this can even be a family member) can pull you up further in life, but they can also bring you down.
So as important as friends are, it is also important that you chose wisely.

My life, hmm, I have soo many family, friends, colleagues and bfm of course. I can say that they have all played role in my life.

Given me information in one way or the other, made me understand life better. Learn new things, etc.

So to any of my family/friends/colleagues/acquaintances, thank YOU! Hope you take time to spend with your loved ones too.
Do it now, then later. Live in the present!

Ps: spend time with your self too… your body’s a temple.

a la Francais!

2009-10-27T17:49:00.000-07:00

The French language,

Oh la la…

C’est tres embrouiller!

I don’t even know if that sentence is grammatically correct! Beurgh!

In the French language, there are many forms of tenses.

1. present tense
2. imparfait (imperfect)
2. passé simple
3. future simple (future)
4. passé compose (past tense)
5. plus que parfait

then there’s the issue about subjunctives, what the hell are they used for in the English language it self je ne comprends pas…
so in the subjonctif section, there is present, imparfait, passé and plus que parfait.

Present tense à

This is the first thing you learn when you’re introduced to the French Language.

Oh and another thing, verbs are conjugated based on the individual,

Whether it’s you, me, him/her/them/us…

Je: Me/I
Tu: You
Il/elle/on: Him/Her/It
Nous: We
Vous: You (formal)
Ils/Elles: They

Oh, in addition to making life slightly bit more difficile, they, have different types of verbs!

First there are the regular –er verbs, -ir verbs, -re verbs, then there are the irregular verbs.

The irregular verbs are conjugated differently from the regular verbs.

Now,
Lets take a look at some of the verbs, and their conjugations in present tense.

-er verbs

Some common regular-er verbs would include parler, aimer, regarder, ecouter etc.

(Please excuse the lack of accents, I’m not too familiar with how to insert them at the moment.)

Anyways,

So in the case of regular –er verbs, they would be conjugated accordingly:

Je: e
Tu:: es
Il/elle/on: e
Nous:ons
Vous: ez
Ils/Elles:ent

In other words…
Parler: To Speak
Je Parle
Tu Parles
Il/elle/on Parle
Nous parlons
Vous parlez
Ils/Elles parlent

Aimer: To Like/To Love
Je Aime
Tu aimes
Il/elle/on Aime
Nous aimons
Vous aimez
Ils/Elles aiment

Similarly for:
- regarder: To watch
- ecouter: to hear
- jouer: to play

Then we have the –re verbs…
Sigh
Some common examples of regular –re verbs would include faire.

Je: Is
Tu: Is
Il/elle/on: It
Nous: Ons
Vous: Es
Ils/Elles: ont

So for
Faire: To Do
Je Fais
Tu Fais
Il/elle/on Fait
Nous Faisons
Vous Faites
Ils/Elles font

Okay, so this isn’t your regular –er verbs, will get back to you on this once I’ve cleared it up.

Next moving on to Regular –IR verbs.
These include finir, choisir, obeir, reflechir,remplir, reussir

Je: Is
Tu: Is
Il/elle/on: It
Nous: Ons
Vous: Ez
Ils/Elles: ent

So in the case of
Finir: to finish
Je finis
Tu finis
Il/elle/on finit
Nous finissons
Vous finissez
Ils/Elles finissent

Other verbs include
Choisir: to chose
Obeir:to obey
Reflechir: to think
Remplir: to fill
Reussir : to be successful/ to make a success of

That’s all for now.

I’m kinda getting tired looking at my computer screen.

Useless?

2009-10-27T01:01:00.000-07:00

Okay,
When I first started writing this blog, I promised my self I'd make it informative and not talk about myself!

Which I have clerly been doing!

So hopefully, tonight, when I get home from work, I'll be able to update it with something more useful...

Need to Pee!!
Bye

Love or Infatuation?

2009-10-26T18:34:00.000-07:00

A person close to me is going through drama...

Sigh, drama, doesn't leave me alone.

Anyways, she and he significant other were thinking about marriage.

But before that,

Another person told me, they should first make sure they're in love and not infatuated with one another.

So, My question is,

What is the difference between Love and Infatuation.

I'd really like to know this.

Before I tell stories...

Kthxbye!

Full to the brim?

2009-10-26T00:59:00.001-07:00

Wow,

I'm officially gonna lose all forms of social life,

I have commited my self to not only my twice weekly french classes, I have also offered to teach at my sister's tuition centre, that leaves me only 3 days, (rather 2 nights) of some activity...

OMG, that's supremely sad...

But I reckon, there is still more to be done!

Anyways,

current crazes are:

1. BFM
2. Portishead
3. Massive Attack
4. Bjork
5. Myself

Current Issues:

1. A mom with the empty nest syndrome
2. BFM's car and phone
3. Not spending time for exercise
4. A sister who comes to me for answers (which I don't have)
5. A boss who doesn't spend enough time on me =( , seriously
6. Not enough sleep
7. A dog who's got nobody to play with while I'm at work

Solutions?

1. Spending more time at home, (don't ask doing what)
2. buy another phone? (hopefully I can afford one)
3. Spend fifteen minutes every morning doing sun salutations
4. Refer her to another fellow blogger =) <-- genius right?
5. Keep reading materials...
6. Spending less time on facebook
7. get another dog?? heheh My mom would kill me, and Butler would rape that dog, dedicate sunday nights for him...

Awesome stuff!

2009-10-19T06:10:00.000-07:00

Okay, girls out there,

I was surfin the net one day, and bam!

I found this awesoem pawesome blog! It's called Sense & Sensuality.

To make sense out of it, you have to read the archives first, in chronological order. This wonderful woman has written the problems faced by women, particularly Indian women and how absurd they are.

I absolutely love this blog, it's all I read these days, but I'm kinda done reading all the posts, so yea...

hahah

but to all those who come across my blog, I hope you will take time of your busy schedules and read Sense & sensuality.

It's complicated

2009-10-19T05:49:00.000-07:00

Okay, here's the story,

I thought staying at home and getting a job would be uber cool, but it turns out, when you start earning money, it's a different story now, you can't just spend the money on all the clothes in the world; instead, it's gotta be channeled to somewhere useful.

ok fine, that's nice to know.

Okay, maybe it's just me, but I'm seriously finding life terribly complicated. For example, you're at an age where e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g you say is taken very s.e.r.i.o.u.s.l.y.

I personally experienced this my self a couple weeks ago, where I hurt a person very close to me by making a joke...

Clearly it was a stupid one...Sigh

Now I'm witnessing one, between two very important people in my life. Lets call them A and N

A shouts, says a lot of hurtful things at times, and thinks he's always right. N on the other hand, takes thse things to heart, breeds the words in her heart, and ensures it gets embedded into every single cell of her brain, then decides to be very spiteful...

And me,
why, as usual, I get stuck in the middle, A n N wont talk to each other, instead they talk to each other via me,
btw, I ain't interested in this shit one bit!

but what to doo, they're important in my life, so I gotta stay involved.

From these past couple of events, I've learn't a few things.

a) seriously think before you talk
b) what's a joke in your head may not be to another
c)learn to take words lightly

It's not like we have such a long time on Earth (phew) so in the short span of time here, why not just laugh and love each other instead of constantly bickering and shouting...

Jeez

And if you feel you have to get absolutely angry, fine, be angry, but also take time to cool down after and GET OVER IT!

Cos, keeping it to heart isn't gonna take you anywhere, it's just gonna bring you down. FYI, this is a very serious problem among women, they forgive but they tend to not forget.

Oh and when you forgive, make sure you're sincere. Please don't be superficial.

Hope you now understand why I think the world a.k.a my life is so damn complicated!

I do not enjoy drama! and for some weird reason, ever since I've finished University, I would be faced with some drama or the other at least twice a month! Heck this is worse then getting periods!

Oh, work's getting better now.

Also, I do think that the world would be awesome, if people were like me? Don't you think so? =)

So if you insult somebody, please say sorry, if you get insulted, please forgive. And mean it both ways!

Shirlene's room!

2009-10-03T07:49:00.000-07:00

Shirlene, this is a Bitch of mine =) and she's absolutely awesome, almost as awesome as me!

It's been a long time since I had been to Semenyih, now that I am done with University. Well I went there for other reasons ;) but since my Biatch was there, I thought, why not check out her
room! New Room summore! Of Campus!

Shirlene lives Off campus in Taman Tasik Semenyih, and it's the coolest!

The visit started of with,

Her ride! This is seriously the coolest ride in town! Yea it may be small, but when you're in it with Shirlene driving of course! All your problems just disappear =)

The front door! (the first of many more to come =S)

Door Number 2

Numero Trois

and Voila!

The Sexiest Room Evaaar (apparently)

Before the other one (biatch) came, Liana,

Something in Shirlene's room caught my fascination!
A Lint remover! It's superrrr cooolll!

So without wasting any time, I got down to work!

and turned out, her shirt wasn't as lint free as it seems! 0.o

Well, after all that tedious cleaning, I went to catch up with some other people, then the other Biatch came!

And what do girls do when they get together?!?!

Girls really just wanna have fun!

Shirlene came across this Malaysian TV series called Ghost1.

This was a pretty interesting show and got us hooked to it! We watched an entire season! It kept our eyes glued to the laptop screen, and we even had breaks in between to actually discuss what was gonna happen next, (now this is something I have never done before) I mean, if you wanted to know what was gonna happen next, might as well not pause and just watch right?!?

But Noooooo

we had to pause and discuss! From here, we also managed to figure out who was the better Director! ahahahahha (inside joke)

I would definitely suggest for you and your girlfriends to get together and watch Ghost!

Can't wait till next week when we catch Season 2!
Wheeeeeeeeeee!! Not really looking forward to the Flashes though ( sorry, another inside joke)

After watching for about a good 3 hrs, what all silly girls doo, camwhore, sigh

Then we had to leave

Cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Since Shirlene has another year to go, we had to leave her,

Cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

After saying our goodbyes and hugs, I continued with my depression, (sad I know)

I somehow seem to screw up, with words. So all, think before you speak, it's too important, especially to your loved ones.

But today was definitely the happiest in a loong time!

Till next week Shirlene! To Ghost!

Cheers!

PS: I Love My Bitches!

PPS: Girlfriends are the Awesomest!

Budgeting

2009-09-21T10:40:00.000-07:00

I never knew it was thiiissss important to budget.

I received my first very very very modest salary, it got in earlier cos of the festive season, and dang it's finishing fast!

It's cool in the sense that my first salary is teaching me how to budget, and prioritize spending.
It's uncool that it's finishing really fast.

I gave my parents and grandma some money, and that really doesn't leave me with much.

Must wait for next month's salary I guess.

Sigh,

I need more money!

Stuck in the M.I.D.D.L.E

2009-09-09T06:00:00.000-07:00

For some reason, I always get stuck in the middle!

First most obvious fact, I'm a middle child.

Then when I was Secretary in University, I'd be in the middle when Douglas and Irfaan would fight.

Recently again, I was kinda put in the middle.

Well actually, I was not put in the middle, I just got there...

Like it was meant to be.

Anyways, I still am in the middle problem, and will always be there for the other 2, actually all the other 2's.

My sis and bro, them 2, and possibly Irfaan and Douglas too. (haha, that's if they're nice to me only)

But anyways, its just strange how I just end up in the middle.

Love,
MiddleChild

My Past week of Employment!

2009-09-09T04:30:00.000-07:00

So after 7 days or 8.45am to 5.45 am, I've finally decided to write about it!

Work has actually turned out to be awesome!
I'm actually loving it!

My first week was hell, mainly because the thought of having to wake up sooo early, showering, getting dressed, putting on make-up. Oh gawd, the whole process was much too troublesome, but as this week began, my work load has been slowly increasing, so I've got work to do.

I'm Senior Executive Officer! I take care of the Operational aspect in the bank. Well, more like currently learning about it.
My boss is too busy to give me more details, but I've had to prepare documents, do write ups for the media on behalf of the bank. And since they'll be read by ALOT of people, it has to reflect the standards of the bank. (Not too much pressure there=S)

My bosses are nice, colleagues are nice, but I'm still experiencing a little of culture shock, even though I'm Malaysian, hahahaha

What else, oh
I hang out with just this one colleague, and we usually go have lunch together, her name's vivienne, she's like this super efficient person, and I've seriously never met any one more conscientious then her. It's amazing and at the same time very motivating. it's nice to be around her, it's keeps me on my toes too!

And she tells me all these little little things that help me to save money, plan for the future, etc...
EPF, socso, budgeting, sighhhhh

I'm becoming an adult now! And I've just realized this is when the learning is actually BEGINNING!
What they teach you in universities is really just the surface, when you start working it's a whole different scenario.

Oh and I'm also being informed about the office politics, it's really quite interesting!

I'm so happy about working, and today, when I walked around, from department to department, in my heels, I didn't trip, it wasn't awkward.

It was Normal!

I guess I'm offiicially getting used to being a grown up!

Une probleme!

2009-09-07T08:13:00.000-07:00

People change all the time right?

A person you met 5 years ago need not be the same now, and may not even be the same in the future.

People can change their minds over a span of 3 days, a minute etc...

What makes people change?

- the people they surround themselves with
- the news

Change can be for the better or for worse, if somebody changes, would you wanna change that person?

Well I guess if it's the worst ever change, then you'd definitely wanna change that person, but if that change is something new to you, and need not necessarily be bad, just different,
then you'll just have to cope with it.

I daresay, I'm not the same old person, in fact I don't even remember what I was like, (is that a problem?)

Anyways, to me it's not a problem, I just want to take it as a learning experience and make the most of it.

If I change, you can't change me to how you always knew me, unless you prove to me it's a change for the worse.

I guess in this I really am fighting with my ego...

Sigh..

Gemini's

2009-09-05T09:08:00.000-07:00

Traditional
Gemini traits

Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively

On the dark side....

Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistent
Cunning and inquisitive

hahah, I got that off google, these past few days at work has made me seriously wonder what on Earth am I gonna be in years to come.

I know what I don't want.
I don't wanna be rich, but I wanna be comfortable. Need to be successful, need to change the lives of those around me, (first thing being to get my 2 really good friends to stop smoking). Help save the environment, help those unfortunate, do you think I'm wanting to do to many things at once, how do you achieve them all? I have to. period.
Sometimes, I feel lost, like I don't know the kind of person I am, I don't know if you experience this, but I usually solve this by googling out my star sign and figure out if that's what I am.
Later,
Confused

Why here?

2009-09-05T08:15:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered how come you were born on Earth?

I believe that we all play a part in this world, and some where I read, that we're all intertwined with each other, in one way or the other. Everything happens for a reason.

But still, what is our ultimate purpose in life?

I believe that I should not live for my self. Whenever possible, help those who are in need. At the same time I strongly feel that financial help in certain circumstances is not a way of help, I believe in empowering people, educating them, making them realize of the opportunities out there, and from there on, you're on your own 2 feet.

I've started working recently, as I'm new to the position, it requires me to read a lot, to find out what is required of my position.

Over the weekends, I volunteer at a Somalian refugee school. I help organize the place, make sure every thing's intact, and teach a couple of classes. Mainly English and Math. I like teaching, it gives me the opportunity to interact, educate, empower and motivate an individual.

It also enables me to learn the importance of patience, and has also warned me of what motherhood is about! and what to avoid! (kids)

Teaching is a very noble thing, and if it wasn't because of our teachers, we wouldn't be who we are now. They play a very important role in all school going individuals.

I've had this sort of vision of teaching my child wrong colours, or wrong fruits, just as a sort of a practical joke. When I went for my volunteering classes, it gave me an avenue for experimenting this.
I still think it would be funny if I showed them an apple and called it an orange. Imagine the many embarrassments that they would experience!
Muahahaahha

Well on my first day of teaching, this popped back into my mind. But strange enough, I couldn't bring my self to do it.

I guess it was because they weren't mine, and it wouldn't be fair to their parents. Definitely gonna try this on my own though!

Anyways,as I go for more classes with them, I am getting to know more and more of them, and every minute of it has been most fulfilling, I get the same good feeling after a good workout session.

In one of our classes, I had them talk about themselves, and what they would like to be when they grow up.

And they all came up with the same standard answers of Doctor, Teacher (like me). I guess it is because these are the only kind of people they've been exposed to. Although a 2 wanted to be soldiers, guess this would come from their Somalian background, and them wanting the war in their home country to end.

When I grew up, I wanted to be a doctor. Seriously, is this like some kind of standard answer all babies are told when they're born or something?!

Anyways, my point here is, instead of spending your free times going something unproductive, talk to the young ones around you, be they fortunate or not, and inspire them, let them know of all the different possibilities there are.

Instead of spending time to working on that Channel bag, or that Nissan GTR, why not we spend our free time empowering and inspiring those kids around us. These children are after all the leaders of tomorrow!

Merdeka?

2009-08-31T18:23:00.000-07:00

Today is Merdeka, supposedly when Malaysia gained its independence from the British.

It's quite sad that my patriotism for Malysia is deteriorating as the years pass.

This year, we've witnessed so many things that show how messed up the systems that's governing us is.

The Teoh Beng Hock incident, anti-isa demonstration, Cow head incident,the PKFZ scandal, the current turmoil in MCA

As Raja Petra calls it Moodeka! Read it, and you'll be shocked as to what a sorry state our country is in.

And the incident that happened last Friday, I just pity all those people who were involved in the protest, how illiterate they must be. Hopefully such foolishness does not pass on. And that cow, it didn't deserve such humiliation after it's tragic death.

It's really quite sad. I could actually feel such a pain in my heart to know that this is the country I was born in.

I know, and I hope that my generation of Malaysian will be more compassionate amongst each other.

To me the true meaning of Merdeka is when the various races of our country can get together and have fun, like my friends and myself.

We respect each others religion, yea we may mock each other as well, but we also forgive and forget. And that is the most important thing to do.

Yes, easier said then done, but I'm sure if we out out hearts and minds to it, we can achieve peace and harmony in our beloved Malaysia.

And to all my friends and family overseas, I hope you will not forget your country and eventually come back!

Lunch with Su !

2009-08-19T04:29:00.000-07:00

Today I went out for lunch with a dear friend of mine, coincidentally where we were, there was a vegetarian restaurant nearby. So I suggested eating there instead. I a veg, she a non, naturally the conversation steered towards the comparison between meat and mock meat and vege's. Hence this piece is mainly dedicated to her.
<3

Eating out with me is really simple. If there's food fit for me to eat, I eat, otherwise, I order a drink and continue conversations with my friends. I don't feel left out or anything and neither should you feel guilty on having a meal without me.

When I have meals with my friends, without fail, there will be a few of them, and usually the same ones, who'd tell me how much it is I'm missing out by abstaining from meat. This really doesn't bother me, so go ahead, do it again, and again, and again, it ain't gonna change me. ( You know exactly who you are =P)

Truthfully speaking, instead of having meals with friends I'd much rather do some other activity like shop, hang around, play games or just have drinks. This is not because I'm deterred by my meat-eating friends, it's only cause I don't want to be packing in any calories.

The primary reason I'm a vegetarian is because I was born into a vegetarian family and proud of it. My family were vegetarians for religious purposes. But now as I have grown older, I've come to realize it's not just for religious purposes but a whole spectrum of other reasons. But I'm nevertheless most thankful to God for getting me born into a vegetarian family.

My personal belief would be that no animal should die for my own satisfaction. No cow, chicken, sheep, goat, fish, not any animal should be killed, just to satisfy my hunger.

Plus, animals are one of the most gentle creatures around, it is us humans who go around terrorizing others. You don't hear of animal terrorists now do you?
And they're so cuteeeeee! How can you cut them up and eat them!

Don't you think so?

So cuteeeee!

I'm not trying to blackmail you or anything. But just look at them! Oh I'm gonna burst into http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=807798827880180175tears any minute!

You really don't have to eat meat, you can be perfectly healthy and not thing you might end up underweight or something. (I am l.i.v.i.n.g proof)

Anyways, here are more reasons I came across google on why you should consider being a vegetarian.

1. Why be a vegetarian?

2. Lose the blubber hehehehe

3. Some of the sexiest vegetarians around...

4. Why being a vegetarian could be a good cause

Hopefully after reading all these sites, you may be a little more inclined to go vege!

Come on people, lets do our part in saving the environment and humanity it self!

Go Vege!

PS: Even after watching "Finding Nemo" would you really want to eat fishes too?

Hmm, maybe Pixar and Disney could collaborate on making an animated movie on vegetarianism...

Why to such extent?

2009-08-16T18:03:00.000-07:00

Today, I was appalled to read the headlines on BBC, why women are being mistreated in Afghanistan, I just don't get.

1. Afghan women fight on for rights

2. Row over Afghan wife-starving law

What is it that's in the heads of those men, that makes them act in such a perverse and sadistic nature.

I was shocked when I read it. Shocked but I also expected it. I had prior introduction to such behaviour when I read the book "the Kite Runner" by Khaled Hosseini. Initially I thought it was a mere exaggeration, but after having read these 2 articles, I'm just appalled.

How can any man with a sane mind treat any woman be it sister, wife, daughter or mother as such.
I hope President Sarkozy get his way with the Burqa ban. I think these women have been oppresed over many many generations and the men have taken advantage of that, and have made it a tradition.

No woman should ever be ashamed of her face and should not be made to hind behind a veil. Hiding your body I can understand, but modesty does not mean covering your face as well.

To the burqa clad women out there. Know your rights. Why should your partner ask you to hide under a veil after marriage? Is there no trust between the two of you. Does he not have faith in you? If so, you shouldn't even be getting married in the first place.

Ps: i'd like to apologize if I offend any parties. But these are strongly my views and I have a right to express them.

Rain or shine, you gotta be there!

2009-08-12T02:36:00.000-07:00

I recently signed up for a boot camp wherein I was to go through some vigorous exercise. There have so far been only 2 lessons. In the first, we were to record our stamina levels. In which, I managed to clock in 17 minutes, which I was told, was pretty impressive for a first timer of my build! *pat on the head*

Today was the second day of the camp. It started at 5.45, which meant I had to be up and about by 4.50 in the MORNING!!

It rained, and we were forced to run, jog, do sit ups, squats, push ups, and the likes, in the RAIN!

While doing sit ups, I had drops of rain falling into my eyes =( It was crazy, miserable, wet, cold, sweaty. And every time we slowed down, the sargeants would add in another half a minute, and f.y.i, half a minute in boot camp time is like FOREVER!

After boot camp I quickly rushed home to beat the KL traffic and to be able to clock in a bit more sleep before my interview with my prospective employer.

At the office, before being given the offer letter to take me under their wing, I was to have a medical check up done.

For some reason I get creeped out by medical check ups, I mean what if something is detected that I might not want my parents to know about. WHAT IF?!?!

So I walked all the way to the clinic from my office only to be made to wait for an agonizing 20 minutes only to have my name called to be registered! Not even seen by the doctor. After the registration process I had to wait another half hour, and finally when my name got called, I had to get an X-ray and a pee test done.

I took my cup to pee in, but then I hahha, dropped it into the toilet bowl by accident, and had no more pee left. So the nurse got me to to do the X-ray first, while making me drink 3 large cups of water.

Then I managed to collect some pee in the cup and bring it back safely to the nurse. (these are the times that I feel, it's way easier to be a man)

After I had given her the cup of my precious, I exited, while exiting, I noticed that drug tests were to be done. This is when I start freaking out majorly! Not that I do drugs or anything, it's just I've had potheads blow smoke to my face. After about another 20 minutes of freaking out and panic attacks, the doctor calls me to do a physical examination.

I try peeking into her desk to see if the reports were ready, unfortunately they weren't. Then she proceeded to examine my *ahem* chest. After "careful" examination, she claims there to be a slight lump. Although she said it was nothing to worry about, she said to get it checked by a surgeon.
At this point of time I'm still worried about the pee test. =S I peeked into her desk again, and whoa, thanks God! I was negative for anything. Phewww what a relief!

Next stop, possibility of breast cancer. Sighh

Immediately I called my dad, who happens to be a doctor, and I meet up with him and my mom to go the National Cancer Centre.

However before that I did manage to meet up with Jann-Lim to eat at the Pink Sage. The food took forever to come, we were both starving, I had a vege burger and it was DELICIOUS! While Jann had a beef burger, poor cow =(

My yummy Vege burger!
This burger was huuge! To big to bite into, but remarkably delicious.

After paying our bill, we opted to sign off on their mirrored panel! I left my trademark sign!

And then of course....

I managed t get my words right to the top! Yay! for being tall!

And my brother who later joined us, could only manage to give his 2 cents worth...

And Jann who looks up to me for everything, followed suit and wrote his two cents worth as well. Didn't manage to capture that though.

Well after having lunch together, I proceeded to meeting my parents to go to NCSM where in there were more trained specialists to have a look at me, and the ultrasound validated the fact that I did NOT have any lump or cancer. Phewww Second big relief for the day!

This little incident also got me to realize how much my parents will do anything for me. My mom completely freaked out, while my dad called his network of doctors to figure out a solution to my problem. It made me appreciate them more, but at the same time, I will stand my ground in saying that I am old enough to make certain decisions in my life.

Another thing I would have to add, is that it is pretty hard to find a reliable doctor. This doctor actually put my family through a lot of distress. I would stay away from Chong dispensaries on Jalan Ampang from now on. When she looked into my ear, she put in my ear those cones, and they definitely didn't look like they had been sterilized before.
I've come across statistics that say that almost 95% of private sector clinics do NOT sterilize their equipments before using them on their patients!

While at NCSM I also managed to get a HPV vaccine, this is to prevent cervical cancer in women. It came in 3 doses for RM 850. Girls, please go get yours today! (again, why it's easier being a man)

Well the day has not ended, I'm just waiting for my sister and Brother to come back from shopping so we can all go for his surprise farewell with his friends! (don't worry, I know for a fact he doesn't read my blog)

Meanwhile, I shall doze a little in order to recuperate from my very stressful day. I think I'm breaking out with a fever =S

Thean Li's Birthday!

2009-08-09T22:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we celebrated a very "special" friend of mine's birthday! I've known her not just for her eccentricity but as well as her very good, kind hearted and forgiving nature. Thean Li.

It was not just any birthday, but her 21st! So??

I decided that I would bake her a cake!!!

After my Yoga class, I rushed to Ampang Park and bought all the necessary ingredients, and got all the ingredients ready to be mixed!

Started with this
Blended it to
Then the best past of any cake,
and then you get

Put it in there for about an hour...

And Voila!
Yea yea yea, so it had a couple of holes in it, but it was still delicious! Too bad blogger doesn't provide scratch and sniff, the smell was orgasmic I tell you.
And Fyi, this cake is eggless, making it vegetarian!

I flipped the cake over on to another tray, to take to Thean Li's house, unfortunately, there, the cake wasn't well appreciated, the people, Thean Li included, and my other friends there, were deceived by the yummy looking Secret Recipe cake. Hmph! It's the inside that matters people! Not the outside.

The only reason I couldn't get the time to decorate the cake was I had procrastinated and I got lost on the way to Thean Li's house. Sigh...

At the party, there were many of her friends, all excited in celebrating her birthday! I met up with Sally, Fadza and Jatin there, took a couple of pictures, talked around, ate, played games, ate some more!

When it was time to cut the cake, my poor little baby was ignored =(

They cut the one from Secret Recipe instead...Oh well.

One person I know who appreciated the cake the most was my me ever loyal fan! He was there by me the entire time while I was making it!

My Butlerrrrr.But he could only get very teeny amounts of cake as chocolate is not good for dogs... Instead, I ate and blew in his face, so that he could smell the cake and drool.

For her birthday, I managed to get Charlene to make a slideshow of Thean Li and her most memorable moments

And her reaction to it?!?!

This!

Enjoyyy!

Love you Lij!
xoxox

Sun Salutation

2009-08-06T09:27:00.000-07:00

The Sun Salutation a.k.a Surya Namaskar
This is a yoga pose, that according to my yoga teacher is an excellent form of cardiovascular exercise. The benefits of the sun salutation is that, it gives you a wholesome workout.

Not only does it tone your muscles, it uses your own body weight to exercise. After about 4 or 5 sun salutations, you'll feel like you've jogged for five minutes.

Apparently the average healthy person should be able to do 108 sun salutations in 20 minutes.
I managed 20 in 20 minutes.
The first ten salutations were okay, but after that, oh gawd, the pain started creeping in, the muscles were beginning to sore from fatigue. But my Yoga teacher, he looks really scary and this was my first lesson with him, so I had to make my self look good, so I managed 20. Pheww! But I tell you, my first time at it, I didn't even get past 6. Tsk tsk tsk...

Anyways, today I thought my sister sun salutations. It dawned upon me to do so, as I pitied seeing her struggle on the treadmill.

The sun salutation is really an ideal for of exercise because, if done correctly it does not hurt your joints unlike most other vigorous activities.

Have a go at it, and you'll see how beneficial the sun salutation can be!

Oh, according to the website I've linked here, it gives you step-by-step instructions on the sun salutation. You will also notice that at each step you're either inhaling or exhaling. You're basically inhaling at every alternate step.

It would be better to firstly start with normal breathing and to then master the breathing with each step.

Once you have mastered the steps, for a more vigorous workout, you can chose to do an Entire sun salutation in one breath!

Begin with 5-10 sun salutations a day, to be done in less than 15 minutes, then progressively increase the number of salutations by 5 each day, and in no time will you be able to do a 108 in 20 minutes with a breeze. Good luck!

Also, don't worry, just because it's called the sun salutation need not mean it be done in front of the sun, or at particular times, do it at any time, any where, as you wish!

I guess, now that I've blogged about it, I should start too... when my sister gets back. It's only nice that I wait for her rigghttt??

Salut!

End of SAP

2009-08-01T08:34:00.000-07:00

As I finished life in University, I was not quite yet ready to work. So unwilling to waste my time, I decided to enroll my self in to an Internship program and at least getting a feel of what was ahead =S.

Lucky for me, I came across the Short Attachment Program (SAP) organized by Alliance Bank.

It was a good eye opening experience for me, although I hated waking up early, getting the train, getting to work. I seriously don't understand why working hours can't be later. But I guess this will never change considering the fact that it's a bank, and people need money and financial information from banks so that they can start their day to day activities. Sigh

The SAP also gave me a chance to meet 8 very different but amazing people.

Jann Lim- It was quite a pleasant surprise to see him there, as we studied in school together and he used to car pool with one of my besties. Jann lim and I ended up spending a lot of time together, like A LOT! Not to forget the fact that we were in the same cubicle doing nothing together! We explored KL during lunch time, walked through Heritage, and found a really yummy Pizza place called Yellow Cab
We managed to get our Host Buddies to take us there for lunch *snickers*. In addition I must say I definitely enjoyed his company, making sense of things,and him perving on my friends ( okay not really but yea..)

Jann at work (00oo00 he's soo gonna kill me for putting this up)

Roy and Yi Ling turned out to be from Nottingham too! Sadly I had never met them there before, strange but true, but what a small world right?!? During this 4 weeks, we got to celebrate Yi Ling's birthday. Roy I found to be such a sweet funny guy actually overcame his fears of Presenting in this 4 weeks, so YAY! for him!

Yi Ting: We were all jealous of her when we found out that she didn't have to pay for her lunches for the past 4 weeks!

Eric a.k.a Alex a.k.a Ipoh Mali, hahaha, this sometimes serious guy was such pleasant company, really loved his insights to things.

Kenneth, this "boyish" fella, had the ability to relate any mundane thing to women, sex, boobs and the likes. *rolls eyes* but damn, his unavailable at the moment!

Shobita, the tiniest in the group, so darn tiny I feel gigantic next to her!

Aiman! Man, this guy would creep up silently into our office, and give us a pleasant surprise!

It was amazing how the bunch of us managed to play Bingo via email! On our last day of the SAP, we opted to spend the rest of the day together. Had dinner at Pavillion, to which we walked, and then went to Jann's house for a game of Monopoly and UNO Stacko. The conversation during dinner, OMG is one I'll never forget! considering the fact that it was Kenneth who started it, it was definitely related to Women, boobs and sex... *Sigh*

Oh, and Bi Bim Bap at Pavillion food court is pretty decent for only Rm 10, I really did enjoy it, or maybe it's just been a long time since I had proper Korean Food, now there's an idea!

Monopoly was awesome! Only because I was winning and they actually conspired against me and ended it before the game even ended to stop me from winning. Hmph!

Our Powerpuff Monopoly Game! It was seriously awesome! Almost as Awesome as Me!!

My winnings and my star representative, I've forgotten her name, well the Red Powerpuff Rocks !

Then we moved on to UNO Stacko, I opted out of this one cos my fingers are just too graceful for it....

but leave it to Kenneth to change this

To this...

Sighhh...

It was really strange that we were a bunch of people who barely knew each other that much, and here we were having such a ball of a time! It was definitely a good ending to a grueling 4 weeks!
Hopefully we will be in touch!

Kaki Blue!

2009-08-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

Seriously, they should have more prominent sign boards for KLPAC, I got lost, but found my way again thanks to Vinod, Phewwww.

The play was scheduled for 8 pm, however by the time everybody settled down from the excitement of Kaki Blue's premiere, the play began at 8.30 pm. Just about when I got there as well. ( yes I know, how irresponsible of me!) But it was great to walk into an auditorium that was brimming with people!

The Set

Kaki Blue began with Form % students gushing out of everywhere after completing their final SPM paper, the 3 main characters of the play, Lin, Nee, and Ah Shan excitedly talk about their plans of nothing-ness (oh how I long for that) after SPM.

Nee has been seduced by the idea of running away with her boyfriend Ah Ong (0o0o he's soo handsome) to KL where she will supposedly win Akademi Fantasia or Malaysian Idol and become really famous. Oh and all this while she has been tolerating abuse from her father.

Hey, do remember, you're not allowed to be physically or mentally assaulted by ANYBODY! Not even your father or husband!

Lin's the "got it all planned out" kinda person. Her main aim is to please her dead mother's spirit. However, she doesn't feel as happy as she should be.

Ah Shan with a single mum is not the average guy, confused over his sexuality,he plans to hide away from his neighbours gossips by staying indoors and watching the Astro Mini Series for the next 3 months.

Like all schools, there is the B****h, who goes by the name Saw Bee Chee, this girl, has tormented Nee since their primary school days.

Even though they do not have solid plans of their future, they are tormented by the SMS that informs them that they have been chosen for National Service (NS). In their eyes, being chosen for NS has destroyed all their "plans".

At camp they are met by Major Sabar, played by Tria Aziz, who seriously did such an amaazing performance, that I applauded non stop! Anyways, Major Sabar is a person who goes by the manual.

At camp, all the students are referred to as "wira's" and "Wirawati's" (Heroes and Heroines), however, they are still treated like little school kids. And even though they were asked to mingle with each other (without touchingg of course) they were still segregated based on sex as well as religion.

Kaki Blue also made an attempt in reminding Malaysians about the 5 not 4 major religions in Malaysia, i.e Hinduism, Budhism, Christianity, Islam and Sikhism.

The bits that caught my attention were when announcements to NS trainees were made in English, Malay, Tamil, Mandarin and even FRENCH and yet none of them listened until Major Sabar screamed! The jokes were also well written, funny, depicted current happenings as well as very well blended into the play.

The cast was made up by a team of obviously very talented people, their performance was not just convincing but persistent throughout the play. However Lin's high pitch wasn't too appealing for me. Nee's role reminded me of an old school friend in primary school, so it was a little nostalgic for me.

Joel Wong who played Jurulatih Tong had an amazing voice and played an understanding NS trainer. It was quite funny when he got everybody's attention towards the end of the play by blowing his shrill whistle only to announce that he too wants to quit NS and sing!

The play also depicted how NS could also bring out the best in people, with Bee Chee standing up for Nee when she was abused, yet again at NS. Lin was also able to speak out, Shan able to figure out his sexuality, Major Sabar realizing that there is more to these students than just drilling and grilling and they should not be treated in such a manner.

The music director,Nick Davis of Kaki Blue (the handsome guy!0.o) and his band did a delightful job with the selection of music, audiences (me) were kept entertained with the upbeat music from start to end. Nick also played the role of Nee's boyfriend in the beginning of the play till he was seduced by Bee Chee *sigh... men*

Okay, yes this picture doesn't do him justice, but on stage, he was WHOA! okayyyy

Owh, my sincere apologies for the lack of pictures, I wasn't too comfortable with taking pictures during the play as we were instructed against it.

The Audience after the play waiting for the cast to come out.

Owh! I even got a picture with Saw Bee Chee, who goes by Denise Yap in real life. She's actually from the same school as myself! See that's what Sayfol brings out! Talented and amazing people like herself and my self of course!

So people, hope after reading this you'll be more inclined towards watching Kaki Blue, you should because you'll definitely enjoy it as much as I did!

Owh, and a Sincere THANKS to Jann-Lim and Family for offering me the extra ticket. And to that other little boy who couldn't make it.

Kaki Blue

2009-07-30T14:37:00.000-07:00

Tonight, I'm gonna watch "Kaki blue".

Jann Lim managed to get tickets to "kaki blue" and thankfully his friend couldn't make it! So now I get to go instead! *Evil laugh*

According to the Kaki blue blog http://kakiblue.wordpress.com/what-is-kaki-blue/

Kaki Blue The Musical is about Lin, Nee and Ah Shan who just completed their SPM, and think it’s time to celebrate. Think again! Just as they sink into a mellow routine of nothingness; of watching TV non-stop and sleeping until 1pm in the afternoon, they unexpectedly ‘kena saman’ in the form of an SMS calling them for service in the Butterworth Kem Bina Negara!
The 3 get over imaginative and start conjuring images of deadly flying foxes and scary men in uniforms…Will their wildest fantasies of the elusive camp and its equally colourful camp trainers be a reality, and will their lives really be the same after the stint in those blue khakis?Follow the three as they leave their blue and whites to don their new uniforms as wira & wira watis in the new camp under the guidance of the no-nonsense Major Sabar.
Kaki Blue is a bold story about the courage and spirit of today’s youth. It is about the many uniforms and roles we put on, and shed, as we grow up in this country. Join the youngsters as they sing and dance to the tunes of yesteryear, to finally emerge the heroes that they are.
Kaki Blue is Written by Mark Beau De Silva

Definitely looking forward to watch it! The last play I went for was the vagina monologues. Erm that was alright, lets see how this goes!

It's at KLPAC, hopefully I manage to get to yoga by 5.30, run home, shower and vrooom off to the play * fingers crossed*
I hope all those reading this will also seriously consider watching the play. We, as Malaysians, should support the Malaysian arts.
They are a talented lot you know!
Go Malaysia! Woot!

Excerpts From Signals by Joel Rothschild

2009-07-30T12:12:00.000-07:00

Signals By Joel Rothschild was a book I read lately. It's about a man, Albert who committed suicide as he could no longer bear the pains of life. His gay lover, Joel is till today alive as he believes that Albert, is guiding him everyday.

This was definitely an amazing read.

Fyi, Joel Rothschild is the longest surviving HIV + patient.

Joel, you must not take your own life. You must go as far as you can in life. Know that each and every moment of life matters and that they are the same in many ways. Ways you have not yet seen. The good, the bad, the healthy days, the sick ones, happy sad, bored,or thrilled- they are the same. With each and every breath, and in every moment of life, you are working things out, things that are connected to some thing far greater. You are part of something much bigger. We are all part of this larger purpose. Those kind people and those cruel people all have a purpose you can't possibly understand right now. Each and every person matters, and each and every moment matters. The painful ones included. We are all one.

You are now confined to living a single moment at a time. Moment by moment, you mark your life. All spiritual growth is based on work from the past. All past experiences are building blocks. All the individual moments of life are the grains of matter that form each block. We are more than grains of sand on a collective beach that is God- we are individual universes bound, tied and connected to one another.

Individual spiritual growth is connected to a collective growth. Free will and destiny are two paths that head to the same place. They cross each other along the way. They are inseparable. Nor is the individual separate from the whole. All life forces are evolving, growing, and moving forward toward oneness with the infinite.

You must live as many of life's moments as you can endure. There is meaning and purpose in every breath of life for you- and for every one- including the moments of pain and suffering. All suffering is connected to a greater good you can't possibly understand right now. Each breath, each second of life matters. In every breath and moment of life, you are indeed accomplishing and working out so much that you can't understand or recognize from where you are now.

Trust me, trust in our love. You will learn and grow through my death. You will know it was my path and destiny to end my life in that moment. It was my life's lesson. What I've learned since death. My suicide is also connected to a greater good. You will see it, in part, unfold in your own life. I will contact you again. I am always with you.

Albert Fleites to Joel Rothschild in the book "Signals" by Joel Rothschild.

A debate between a famous rabbi and a cardinal on the subject of the differences between Christianity and Judaism:

The Rabbi concluded:

For two thousand years, Christians have believed that mankind is intrinsically bad, that all human beings inherit original sin and always must go to God for forgiveness. Jews on the other hand, for four thousand years, have tended to believe mankind is intrinsically good. We do make mistakes, however, and should go to God for forgiveness when we do so.

Keep it up Joel!

My French Experience

2009-07-30T11:34:00.000-07:00

Those who have me on facebook would have noticed that I had to cram French in a very short period. 13 hours to be exact.

It was definitely a crazy exhilarating experience! I had to cram a whole bunch of French words for an interview in which I was expected to translate a French document as a means of assessing my capability.

When I went to the interview, at the Bursa Malaysia building, the sweet old taxi driver of a man was ever so kind to wish me luck. I even noted his Taxi Id, just in case I got through the interview to track him down and thank him.

But, erm since I'm not interested in the job I forgot the number =S

Anyways, when I approached the interview venue, the people there were dressed in some what casual clothing and this did not impress me one bit!

Then the HR Recruiter, Gracie got me filling some forms and left me in a silent room and asked me to wait till the manager came to interview me.

Then this man and a girl came in to interview me. The firstly explained what the job was about, but I couldn't help but notice the very many freckles the man had on his hands...

I was asked to read aloud a French document, and explain to them what it said, I did fairly well, however, when I asked for the meaning of some French words I was alien to, he confessed he wasn't too sure himself.

Second unappealing point.

After this, they actually started selling to me the job, and how I can grow within it. I seriously do not like it when people start selling ideas to me, convince me, not sell!

At the end, they asked me to wait for Gracie who had to collect some forms of me, again, I was left in the cold silent room. And guess what, Gracie, forgets me!

So I was left in that room for like 30 mins all by my self =S I started humming my new favourite song by Kenneth Bager, giggled to my self, called bfm (but my phone battery died, so that didn't last long), thought more funny thoughts, giggled to myself more. (at this point of time I'm wishing real hard there isn't any cctv in the room)

Suddenly! I had an epiphany, I've always thought that the prospect of having a jail record would be appealing, but after 30 minutes in this room, I realised, no way would I ever wanna end up in jail =S

Exasperated, I went out of the room to look for Gracie, left her a message saying I was still waiting for her. When she finally came, I gave her all my papers and practically ran out of the room!

Wheeeeeeeee free again!

So since I've already concluded that I do not want that job,

I still need a job.

My Attachment

2009-07-30T11:25:00.000-07:00

Hahahaha, internships, they're misleading I tell you! They lure you in with the hope of you getting some serious hand on experience, in the end, you end up playing bingo with your colleagues via Intranet!

Well I've been attached to the Islamic Division, and it's been a little enlightening and I must say I've enjoyed the experiences and company so far.

In the 1st week, my buddy paid some attention to me, but after that he's been to busy and has even managed to avoid me =SHe wouldn't look me in the eye, well, can't blame him, he is busy. In the mean time, I've decided to cram some French, as well as B.L.O.G!

Lucky for me, I've got an old school friend attached in the same program as me, in the same division, so I've got plenty of company! we've been exploring new places to eat in the heart of KL, and also taken to taking strolls along Heritage Row during the day.

Heritage Row, omg, that place is empty! during the day, the waiters were practically begging us to come and eat. Guess that's how much in demand I am...

Now!

2009-07-30T11:22:00.000-07:00

I've moved back home, restricted by curfews even though i'm bloody well..old.I don't like bumming, so I managed to get my self into a Short Attachment Programme with Alliance Bank. At least now, I've got a slight idea of what I can actually do with my degree. *pats head* =DThe sky's the limit yo!

A Brief History

2009-07-30T11:18:00.000-07:00

So, I've just graduated from the University of Nottingham. There I achieved many many things,oh and that would include my degree yea.The most accomplishing was me being the Secretary of my Student Association. In university, I also made amaaazing friends, had the opportunity of working with ten amazing people, partying till dawn ( a little less on my final year though), talking to the ducks, and a whole bunch of other things from which I learned a lot. Like a Lot!